Haish, would you just look at that? She simply said that I should just forget about her. There's a huge hole in my heart right now. I just can't believe this is happening. If I wouldn't have asked about her feelings towards me, none of this would've happened. But then again, I've waited for her for a long time, and this is what I get. She doesn't seem to realise how much sacrifice I've done for her. Or wouldn't even care? When I'm with you, you always said, "I never wanna let you go", or things about you saying to me not to leave you. Now we're apart, you said, "I want you to know that those promises is still kept in my heart. I never will stop loving you. We just need to be seperated for the time being; and i just hope you'll still have the same feeling as you do the first time you meet me, when its the time for us to get back together." And so, I waited. But where were those promises now? You can live your life happily without me, don't you? That's why you said you have feelings for Zico, and kindda went on a relationship with him? Even for just a day? And you broke his heart, that's simply because - You didn't tell him earlier. He's pissed off with that. And THAT goes the same to me! You wanted me to wait for you. And for about a month, you said that you don't want me to wait for you?! I'm MORE hurt than Zico, do you know that? Do you even care?As far as I can remember, I've never ditched you. I've never even cheated you. But why are you doing this to me? Are you deeply in love with another guy, and made me believe that you're having phobia in love? Haish, I don't know if I should say more. You wouldn't even care, right? I've respected your decisions and understood your situation. But I think I've been taken advantage with. For your info (IF you'd really care!), all those posts have always been refering to you, no one else. Cause why? I NEVER wanna hurt you again. But why do I even bother to post them up? Just to make you realise what my heart felt. But you didn't even realise, which was foolish of me to post those up.You said that you wanted to see me happy? Can you ask yourself first? How could I possibly be HAPPY without loving you? I'm confident that you know me too well. And I know that you know how serious I am with this "Love" thing. I've never played around with it. You realise that, don't you? We were bestfriends after we broke up. But I still can't accept the fate. I just CAN'T! That's the reason why I always waited for your messages, and waiting for the moments to call you up. That's because I care. No less.Haish. I remembered the time before we're together. I said to you that I'm never gonna have any relationship after breaking up with Ika. But you changed my mind. The closer I was to you, the more I fell in love with you. We finally went on a relationship, and how lucky I was that god gave me someone who gave me SUCH AMOUNT of love. It's unspeakable. I don't even wanna go to sleep after hearing your voice on the phone. It's such a beautiful love. We went to places I've never brought a girl with me before. And it's so romantic. The weather had been so kind to us to offer us such peaceful atmosphere. Beautiful music were there too. I can't forget all those.There's more. Alot more! But, she's gone. Where am I gonna keep all these memories? My heart is no longer with me. It's broken.Is love at first sight even true?I've waited for quite a long time now. And you don't seem to care. It's like, I feel in love with nothing? "Syiok sendiri"? Pfft.Now, I'm wondering. Why did the both of us broke up? Is it about your parents? Or is this love just ... dead? I just wanna let you know. You can forget me in just a snap. That easy, that simple, that quick. But I'm never gonna forget you. And I'm never gonna stop loving you. That'll be such a waste. And if you're too annoyed by that, you're gonna have to KILL me to stop loving you.I dare you to try.Labels : So much for "Till death do us apart."
