Hmm, I didn't sleep last night at all. I just cried all my tears off. Most parts of me can't seem to accept the fate, while the rest, they're there to keep me strong and alive. I have to admit that I'm missing Bestie so much. She's "Love at first sight". Well, I've gotta be frank that I regretted on doing this, totally. I just want her back. But then again, I just don't wanna hurt her anymore. As you all know, I'm the type of person who hurts himself just for the sake of his love's happiness. Bestie still represents "Love" to me. I smiled widely into tears as I look into her pictures, and that most precious gift she gave me - the Half-Heart necklace. It's encraved with her name, and reminds me more about our 3rd month anniversary. Haish, I just wish I could have her back.

She texted me yesterday night just to see if I'm available with my phone. Well, I am. But, I don't know if I should reply, cause I'm just afraid if another argument like days before would come up. So I left my phone there. Few moments later, second thoughts came into my mind. Damn, I'm missing her so much! So, I ran back into my room and grabbed my phone. With heartbeats and courage, I called her up. She answered with that sweet and cheerful voice of hers. Oh my gawd! I went into tears! She sounded so happy that I called her up! It really made me shatter to pieces. But then, I've gotta do what I've gotta do. I told her to take care of herself, and that she's been a really great friend to me. As a matter of fact, she's indeed the greatest. I shed into tears, not wanting to let her go. But, I've got no choice. I told her to go to sleep, and said goodbye. Letting her go by sight, not by heart.

That was .. the last time I'm hearing her voice. I sat on my bed and stared on the wall. My mind kept playing back all those moments I've spent with her. It's like, I'm watching a love movie. How touching. The laughter, the kisses, the cuddles. We did lived happily together. But now .. haish. I don't know what to do. I really need Bestie back. I just can't live without her! I regretted what I've done. I'm putting myself into a paper shredder, tearing myself apart. Yeah, I am totally heartbroken. Bestie, I'm sorry! ='(

Well, I forced myself to go to school. I've got no more energy from last night's tears. I can't focus on everything. Got lotsa candies from my friends just to keep myself awake. And worst still, I didn't eat during recess cause I didn't bring any money! Urgh!

Stayed in school after curriculum time and waited for the 'O' levels MT listening comprehension. We reported in class at 1600 hrs. So we got ready and expect the exam to commence in a half hour. So, it was 1630 hrs. Then, the radio announced that the exam commences at 5pm! Urgh! The whole class were really pissed off! Everyone of us layed their heads on the desk and slept. That would most probably be me of course. I didn't sleep the whole night! So, yeah. The exam started till 1730 and we all headed home. And as for me, I rushed home and read Bestie's blog. Haish.

P.S. : It's just nearly one day, and I can't even take it any longer... ='(