Mmm, I'm not feeling well. That's all. I just don't smile like before anymore. Which kindda something great for myself. Proven, I'm more commited towards studies, I think. But then, MILLIONS of thoughts ran through my head. They really distracted me, pulling my mind off. Gosh, I just wish I could have someone to talk to. I honestly do. Aches grew worse all the time. Physically, mentally, and even feelings. Gawd, I can't even see my ways. You know how it feels like?! Oh, it feels like you're lost in the forest at night, and batteries in your torchlight went off. Sucky isn't it?

Why? Why am I turning myself into this kindda fate suddenly? Is it because god wanted it to be this way? Or it's simply because I chose to? I'm stranded.

Well, I used to keep on comforting others with thei problems. I loved the way I was. But ever since about a month ago, things started to change. And what I could tell you is, things went darker and darker everytime. I've lost my self-confidence, and everything.

Erm, there's one more thing that's hurting me right now. But it'll just hurt someone, that's for sure. So, let's just drop it, okay?

Anyways, I've made my decision on not to re-attempt my Mother Tongue O-Levels. It's not that I don't have ny more money. It's just that .. haish. I don't wanna take anymore risks. Look, fate is just irreversible. You can't simply erase a mistake you've made on a typewriter, correct? Hell yeah, that's fate.

Hmm, English Oral for O-Levels are on this Friday, and Science Practical for Prelims are end of this month. Haish, I can't lose hope can I? Well, I'm gathering all my courage now. Just pray that I'll do well, awesome?

That's all.