What a life! First comes that, now comes this. Devil won't leave me alone! I'm being a huge burden to everyone else am I? Ariani, listen to your parents. You're still young and I don't want you to be defiant to them. What they say, you do. Okays? I want you to make them proud. I'll be proud if they are. You should be doing the right thing. You need their trust to move on. Otherwise you'll come up with another suicidal thought. I hate it.I always said this. I've said it once, I've said it twice. And I'm saying it once more - I am nothing but trouble. But you disagreed. Look at what happened now? Aku taknak lepas tangan, but I'm sure you'll live a better live by doing this. I'm doing this for your own good. And please STOP asking me to stop blaming myself. I'm mad at myself for not getting out of your parents' mind. They won't trust you for as long as I'm in there. God sees everything. Maybe we're gonna talk again in a few months time. But if it's much better for you, we'll never talk again. It's up to you to decide.I'm sorry for being harsh. But I really, REALLY don't wanna be any much trouble to you anymore. Before anything, please ask yourself this. Can you live without me? No? I'll always be here anytime, everytime. But if its a YES, then you can throw me in a dustbin or whatsoever. Bear in mind, if you were to ask me that question, I'll just shook my head - never nod. You get what I mean, right?Now we really have to be a apart. Ariani, for your info, I cried while websms-ing you just now. You didn't notice. Huge heartbreak. That's why I spoke to you in that manner - short and botherless. I just ... haish.I wore that necklace everytime since the day we broke up. I know you didn't. It's just for your info. And I will still wear it everywhere I go. In the meantime I'm not in your life, I want you to take good care of yourself. I really want you to. I'll be waiting for you. Oh, it's really fun to keep waiting for someone you love the most. Trust me. And I wish for that star to grant me my wish. Whatever my wish is.Next thing, I won't get online since your parents saw us chatting on MSN. That'll help you keep out of trouble.Haish, tears. Please stop dripping down. I just can't help it.Lastly, I don't know if I should do this. But I'm closing down my blog. I said this before, but Ariani stopped me. Now we're apart, so this blog means nothing anymore. I don't feel like expressing my feelings and thoughts anymore. It'll all be kept in my heart. Hope you'd agree.Ariani, my last words to you. I know not of what's gonna happen to us. I still had heartaches about you, but I still love you, deeply. Now is a really huge sacrifice. Don't be sorry, I should. None of these would've happened if ... nevermind. There's no use talking about it now. Rice has already became porridge, you know? Just take care of yourself okays? Hey, I'd love to hear you got into express next year. it's one of our dreams coming true. Yeap, it's my dream too. I'll be delighted to know about your success.Well, this is it. With this last tear dripping down this soft skin, Ariani, I love you with all my heart. Goodbye. ='(That's all.Labels : Other readers, please, treasure your love ones. You'll regret otherwise.
