Sometimes I wonder if I SHOULD say a thing or two in this blog. I could hardly trust anyone getting their hands on my problems. I knew this was always gonna happen. Why even wonder about what I'm suffering when you can't even get a hold of yourself? Why bother handling my problems when you can't even handle yourself? You never knew if I were to suffer more than you. You've got more people to love, on your side, on your back. You even have family members to talk about your problems, to even show them your tears - that's if you wanted to. As for me, I have no-one and nothing to let my feelings off. Oh, this blog? It's just like a mere newspaper that tells you what I'm going through, yet not all of them. What can it do?

First, Rid got pissed about him being the last to know about the Prom Night. All because of himself hating Alfian, and I'm the one to be blame for that he suspect me of probably telling Alfian everything about Rid. Well, what do ya know?

Second, Muna got too committed to make me realise that Rid's feelings should be kept attended. Oh yeah, for years we've done that sweetie, he never even wanna see. So, what happen was, blah blah blah blah, and she want me to think about what she feel and think about giving her time to change. Am I giving you time? Or am I giving you too much time? Well, what explains, everything made me blew out to you about my plans to propose to you on your birthday, since you wanted to know it SO MUCH! Great, I swore to never be in a relationship with you if that plan failed. Instead, it broke out weeks before the day itself! Painful isn't it? Haish. I just wish I could give you my life once again, but I'm sorry. It's happening. Fine, what I did hurt you more than other guys hurt you. So please, I'd rather have you away from me. I'm just like a contaminated perfume making you sick, understand?

From what I can see, you don't need to have me by your side all the time, right? You have him to talk to on the phone till late night, you need him to be with you everytime I invite you to my house, you need him FIRST everytime you wanna let out your feelings, you tell him FIRST about what your going through, and HE was the only person whom you tell your secrets with. Oh I'm not hurt with that. He is like a brother of your own, I can see that. Yes, I can see, that you both are pretty much closer than that. Nah, I'm not suspecting anything. Like I said, you don't need me to be with you when you have him around. That's the fact. Probably that's the reason I'm attempting to leave you both from the very start. I should have, but love brought me back in. Now I realise, I'm just another extra party. Don't get me wrong. I'm never jealous about this. But oh, I'm sorry to bug you guys.

I've got lots more, maybe five or six. But I'm too lazy to write those down, or even telling anyone. I suspect more issues are gonna come by next dawn. Well, I'm ready, sincerely.

That's all.