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Hmm, for Rid, I didn't say my problems with Muna have anything to do with you. What happen was, she got too committed in covering your back against me, somehow against me about that Alfian thinging? Well, I explained some stuffs. She suddenly said that I should think about your feelings AS LIKE think about her feelings to give her time to change. Well, she wondered about what I'm up to alot, and mati-mati nak tau. Great! So I told her off. She wanted to know it so much, there I went. My fault? Think about it.

So next. Hmm, you felt unwelcome and humiliated. By the way, did I laugh when Alfian said to you to gentel your buah? Well, I didn't. And I said something like, "Siak jer kau!" and stuffs like that? You really think I'm that pervertic to laugh about this kind? I joke around WITH limits, buddy. It's your fault for not paying close attention to the surroundings, especially me, understand? By the way, I cared about how Alfian humiliated you. But do you even care about how YOU humiliated us? Remember Sec 3? About what you said to Aidillah and others? I don't know what you said to them, but what left a bunch of dirt on my face was - Aidillah did text me once about US not paying attention and not layan-ing you. Do they even know that it was because we hated your attitude of speaking that bad mouth of yours all around? Remember? Oh sure you do. Because we SOUNDED you for that, right? So, my fault? Think about it.

Next, didn't I say I'm NOT jealous seeing you with Muna? Muna understood what I mean, why can't you? Sorry dude. looks like you're the one misunderstanding this part. Look, unlike you, I am totally not the person who assume things. That'll leave me more at fault. That's why I kept having second thoughts to keep myself safe. Once again, unlike you. Get this straight, there's no jealousy here, understand? So, my fault? Think about it.

Next, yes. I less often ask about your well-being. I'm sorry, but I kept having problems myself. Now you know it? Or you ALREADY know? (Didn't Muna even told you about the lines on my palm? GO ASK HER!) But the thing is, the reason why I'm not letting you know is that you are not the kind of person to tell my problems with. Sorry dude, this is honest speaking. You're the kind who kept memberontak. Like I said in my previous post, "Why bother handling my problems when you can't even handle yourself?" I appreciate your attention. But pay MORE attention to yourself. Kau lupa diri, that's the problem. By the way, I'm not giving you advices? Let me ask you this. Have you lost your brain cells? Your forgot things eh? When you fought with Ain, who adviced? When you found out that Mas smoked, who did you called? When you fought with Rufisha, who spoke to her? I'm sorry to say this, but as Muna said (I think), you remembered your own good deeds, but not others. Wait, you're not the only person whom I NOT tell my problems to ya know? In fact, I NEVER tell my problems to anyone. so why get offended? Didn't I told you this before? Or you simply don't understand? So uhh, my fault? Think about it.

So yeah, you aren't able to understand my emotions because you don't understand yourself. If you don't even understand what I'm saying, gawd, all I can say is, read this post again and again. I can't do anything about it. So, my fault? Think about it.

Finally. Honestly speaking, I don't even know whether should I take a turn back or not. You know what kinda person I'm looking for - Nice, sweet, good-looking, a good heart, cheerful, patient, loving, friendly, smart, and respecting elders. The person who has them all, is perfect to me. I don't mind having a person with one of those missing qualities, as long she has a good heart and knows how to make things right. One more thing, which I'm very particular of - "Vengeance" is never in my dictionary. You can ask one of my ex. We had a HUGE conflict when she's planning to seek revenge against her own bestie. So, my fault? Think about it.

So how do you want me to end this? In order to make you god-damned satisfied, you want me to tell the other band members about what you feel? That was what you suspected me of isn't it? You said, "Ntah2 kau bilang dier, makin teruk nanti." Something like that? How should I say? Hmm, things like, "Eh, Rid tak puas hati ngan kau uh. Aper Muna bilang aku, Rid masih simpan dendam pat kau pasal kau malukan dia ngan Heedayah. Aku ingat outing gi Orchard that time leh settle sumer, aku tau kau nak berubah, but Rid ni buat hal." How's that? That'll just turn me into batu api, right? But was that what you really wanted? Why keep them all inside when you can just blow it out? Am I right? What are you waiting for? Tell 'em off if you dare. Still distrust Alfian on washing his hands? Why don't you ask Muna what I told her about Alfian. She understood. Let's make yourself satisfied, shall we?

Should I say more? Oh wait, I've said too much. And wait, I'm never gonna let out my feelings anymore. Why? Look at what's happened to Muna. I dare not say a word, but I SHOULD say, "I shouldn't have told you that."

That's all.